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Dear Diary

My Life has been a fairy tale....
Feb. 2, 2003

The first time I ever saw Brian was night skiing on the slopes of Mt Hood. I had never been skiing before in my life. We were on a Youth Group activity with my church and Brian was a " helper. " When I was trying to put on my left ski, I slipped and fell to the snow. I laughed it off with my girlfriends. All of a sudden, a hand reached out and I heard a voice speak. " Here, let me help you. " I looked up into the bluest eyes I had ever seen. After a few minutes of names and questions, we realized that we go to the same church but have never met. He asked me if I wanted to go up the lift with him, but my father gave me a No GO!!! The whole ride up the lift my girlfriends were asking me what he had said and we were giggling about him, " The Mystery Man." I had only seen his eyes thru his goggles. Not knowing alot of what he looked like but already interested in who he was.

That night, my dad and I arrived home to my mother staying up curious to see how her daughter's first ski trip went. The first thing I said to my mother was, " I am in love. I met the man i'm going to marry. " After the story retold to her and my dad on how I met him, they realized that this crush was not going to go away. So, the beginning of my first love began.

Feb. 2003

A couple weeks later, our church had a banquet. I wore my bridesmaid dress from my sister's wedding. It was a perfect time to dress up. I wore long wear lipstick for the first time in my lifc. All night long I just kept thinking my lipstick was probably faded. One out of the three times that I went to the bathroom at the banquet, I reapplied my lipstick and gabbed with some of the girls from church. We had already eating from the buffet and were singing funny songs that pertained to food and God. With all my voice, I started to sing, "when the rolls are called up yonder." While I was singing and coming out of the bathroom....There he was. All by himself in the buffet line. The girls giggled and kept walking. This was the first time I had seen his entire face and not just his eyes thru goggles. He had such blue eyes and his smile was very soft and charming.

We talked for a couple of minutes but it seemed like hours. Before I knew it, my little sister was telling me it was time to go and my Dad was getting the car. I really didn't want to stop talking with him, especially since I never saw him at church. But, I said my good bye and day dreamed all the way home. I knew that a new chapter in my life was begining and it made my heart skip beats every time I thought about him. Because of our age difference, I couldn't do anything about it. My dad told me that if I was meant to marry Brian, he would be there when I grow up. It was really hard to wait though. Liking someone so much and them not even know it. So, we were friends....for now. But that was better than not having him in my life at all.